Sunday, October 15, 2006
Grabe.
Though I still have four days to spend with the babies in the nursery as part of my make-up duties, I would like to close the previous sem, anticipate the next with high enthusiasm, embrace the remaining days of my vacation, sleep like there is no tomorrow (though I still have to be up at 4:00am until thursday...pfft) and start the road to a change in the drive to healthy excellence at school.
The last sem was an overkill of emotions. I had realized, finally, that people can stab you hard in college. Whenever mom would tell me never to trust anyone in college, I'd brush the advice aside and tell her that the people I meet are trustworthy and would never bring me down.
Guess mothers do know best.
After everything that had happened, I now believe that in order to get even, people will do everything to stop my momentum; that though your efforts were for the best of all and were directed towards changing for the better, still there are closed-minded people who would forever stick with the initial impression.
And so, yes, enough is enough. I have already consulted with the authorities and though it pains me to leave those who have been there with me since the start, I do have to save myself from totally spiraling down. I can't afford another year of people trying to make me feel inferior...trying to use me when they feel the need to.
Change would be great, I know. It will be a fresh, new start; another chance to redeem myself and start telling people that not all the time I can tolerate the idea of being subjected to jeers that are totoally uncalled for. Change will make me firm and make people start having the impression that not all the time I can tolerate being jeered at, especially if it does damage. Problem with people is they think it's always okay...
Now all I really ask God for with regards to school life is the approval of authorities for me to have a new start with new people. I do not care if the grand case assignment would be harder; as long as I have people who would support me, people who I know are sincere, I know everything will be alright. The grade wouldn't matter to me; it doesn't anymore.
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To add up to the excitement of my sembreak, things had just been getting happier and happier.
I thought that resuming the regular household yesterday will be the turning point from badtrip to happy but God gave it away too early.
I.am.absolutely.floored.by.yesterday's.happiness.
First, I got to bond with Kel again yesterday after a loooooooong time. I miss Bibbo (my old group) already. I miss them so, so, so much.
Second, when I thought I had to wait 'til December for me to buy a new phone, God graced me by my uncle and auntie who bought me a motorola c261 yesterday! Now I can really my other auntie's present in December for ILC Bohol and a new Mp3 player! =) My brother actually bought his 512mb for 1800! Besides that, the features are great. Haha...I can't wait for the next surprises!
Third, just right after make-up duties, I'm gonna go to Puerto Galera with my auntie and uncle. Grabe. This is too much fun. Haha.
Fourth, the upcoming Victory party of SB2. I miss my cluster to death! I wish we could secure the poolside at Chateau Elysee.
Fifth, the Hillsong United Concert on Nov21! I got court tickets! Seat number 42! Near the stage! My fervent wish to see them live was granted! Can't wait!!!
Sixth, the Metrocon. I'm gonna serve as part of the Medic team! Another granted wish!
Seventh, sb2 started to have a purely pastoral household last Friday night. I can't wait for the next. I was so kilig by Tita Baby's and Tito Benjie's love story. Haha. And she actually ended up with the man who had the qualities he had been fervently praying to God for. All of the sisters who were with me were wishing the same thing would happen to us someday. Hay. Imagine ending up with the man you had always asked God for... =)
Eighth, last Tuesday my professor in my major subject pulled me aside at Ministop and said these words: "Ms. Rosal, you're one of the highest in the n201 final exams. Congratualtions, ha? Naku baka magtopnotch ka na sa boards ha?"
Wow God...grabe...I want to see and hug You tight!
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I am at the threshold of oblivion. I don't want to leave.
9:05 AM
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I don't care what the world
throws at me now.
It's gonna be alright.
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