Tuesday, February 27, 2007
You=exceptional
I never really mentioned of anything about you in this blog for the fear of telling something stupid and sending wrong signals to people who read this. But since it's out in the open and after a while ago I had been a tad comfortable (tad lang...kala mo...haha)... this will be my first entry dedicated to you.
Take this as another thank you letter addressed to you...not anymore through a handmade letter container only you and me knew about but through something a lot will see.
Thank you for being part of this insane world...for daring to enter when I had shut the doors. Thank you for being an instrument for healing when I thought I'd dwell in misery for another year. For a while ago...haha speechless ako. Like I said...not now...there is a time for everything. I'm glad though I felt special. Naks. Haha. Basta thank you talaga...as in. You made my day when you almost ruined it at the same time by the argument yesterday morning. Haha...laughtrip when I reread the messages of rage I sent you. And funny too when I remember how I really tried to ignore you when i saw you coming near in mcdo. Haha...alam ko kaya na nandun ka na..sabi ni lia and laiza eh...but i refused to look back. Bahala ka sabi ko. Sama ba? Anyway...I think I have said enough. You know the rest. I had told everything I should tell you last december and i already have told you why at times I would like to completely erase you from my phonebook and worse...my life. But you had been a good, good friend and you know I wouldn't do that.
So hey Benjamin...thank you again for being that special person who makes this lunatic smile in each day. =)
12:54 AM
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I don't care what the world
throws at me now.
It's gonna be alright.
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Two Hands, One Heart, One Rockin' Life
It's been a month since I last wrote here. I have been dying to spare a little time to type and vent my feelings but alas!---the grandcase, group case study, exhibit, school folio, school paper, harana project, people issues have taken much of my time. When I did have free time I spend it watching korean movies which are. so.freaking.addicting. Argh! I need rehab for addiction! I have finished Princess Hours and the latest favorite movie that had registered itself on the repeat mode of my memory---The Classic. I want to have the same love story! Someone...I need anxiolytics...quick.
Anyway, what had happened over the last few days were simply amaaaaaaaaaaazing! Well except for the sucky new unlimited rates of globe, I have survived the first storm of my college life-the grand case.
After all the hardwork, thank you GOD! Yours is the glory! When before I believed that it was a curse to be blessed in the blabs and defense department, I take back everything negative. Nevermind the people who call themselves righteous when they called me selfish wayyy back. Nevermind if there are present day vampires personified by the.abusive.people. All I can remember was the message of God that day and how He made it known---In His Steps caption, Jan12, 2007: Faith coupled by the power of God equals one big miracle. I love my life. I love God.
Next...today's events.
Sometimes, God can be so surprising when He calls. I initially went to Makati Med just for a checkup since my neck was getting larger day by day. Mom is constantly scolding me for disregarding my health ever since she learned that her aunt is having thyroid cancer. And so I went after a litany of sermons. When I got to the clinic, I was told to return tomorrow since the doctor only honored health card users in the morning; disappointed, I went to school to find Neal for the miting de avance plans. What turned out to be a well-planned day went beserk when I was asked to cover the groundbreaking ceremony of the hospital and when I landed in the love seminar thereafter. After the seminar, when I saw the guidance counselor I blurted out my desire to talk to her about putting up yfc-gky in school.
And guess what? She agreed to help me.
But God was so wise that He surprised me further when I saw my favorite professor who agreed to be an adviser!
Grabe! God...I dunno how to start but THANK YOU! I am so in love with God!
To end the surprise, He led me to attend the Greenbelt mass at 7pm. One song and one message hit me hard: I have two hands, one heart and one life to offer God. All that...all of me.
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Ever had that feeling of fuzzines when your crush looms your way? Or when someone special tells you sweet nothings?
That is exactly what I am feeling at the moment.
And if God would appear right this very moment, I'll hug Him like there's no tomorrow.
I love God. I love, love, love.
When I thought my limitations would cripple me, He was there to remind me that my limitations are nonexistent because He's there to stretch it out if only I allow Him to steer the wheel of my life. Now all I pray is that I'll be guided some more...
"Tell me what you want me to do Lord God...tell me what you want for my life...
It's Yours, Lord God, it's yours."
12:16 AM
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I don't care what the world
throws at me now.
It's gonna be alright.
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