Saturday, September 23, 2006
Suddenly Reminiscent
I never realized before that all sad experiences are actually preparations for happier ones. I have always questioned God many times before because I never really understood why I had to go through those stages.
But now, when He did answer me, I can't help but laugh at the very idea that I had sulked too much before.
Haha...you guys should see me laughing right now. My mom finds it so hilarious that I am laughing all by myself.
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Suddenly, I miss a lot of things I usually did when I was a kid.
I miss playing langit at lupa (and breaking my arm in the process).
I miss agaw base! hehe.
I miss stargazing by the swing each night, with the constellation map at hand.
I miss piko, jackstones, pick-up sticks, chinese garter...
I miss bargaining with mom about going out when I haven't slept that afternoon (I can't go out to play if I did not sleep. sheesh).
I miss having autograph books and writing the initials of my crush under the "who is your crush?" section.
I miss playing in the rain with my cousins.
I miss watching fireflies swarm all around in Bicol.
I miss fiestas with the whole family in Bicol.
I miss going to the beach a few blocks away from mom's ancestral home in Antique and riding the fishing boat with lolo, eating castanyas (spelling?) while enjoying the morning waves splashing on my face.
I miss riding the pedicab around the town plaza in Antique and hearing mass in Bisaya.
I miss going to the school park in Bicol and catching dragonflies.
I miss scouting my crushes with my best friend Jessa back in grade school.
I miss Girl Scout campings.
I miss bravery tests in Girl scout.
I miss trekking Makiling each year.
I miss Boracay, which is soooo near lolo's home (haha actually a ride and a boat away...malapit na yun!).
I miss picking star apples and atis in Nanay Maring's yard.
I miss Dinky, the dog I love to death who got injured once by a Dobberman when he tried to save me and then died saving my family from robbers. (I'll have a separate post for this)
I miss my yaya who sang me "From a Distance" each time I will go to sleep and who I cried over for weeks when she left to marry.
I miss my lola nanay who always argued with my mom about what dress I'd wear during sunday masses, the way my hair will be ponied; I miss her black rosary and watching her pray each night. She passed away years ago.
I miss lolo papa who laughed each time I cried because my cousins were all teasing me.
I miss lolo king who hugs me tight and kisses me in the forehead each time he saw me. He died this year.
I miss the novenas to Mama Mary which I bugged mom to attend with me.
I miss Kuya Wewel who I used to visit in Pampanga's Don Bosco Seminary. He passed away in 1993 at 16.
I miss a lot of things and persons.
I'm not sure why I really missed my childhood all of a sudden. What I am sure of though is that now that I'm grown up and in college, I miss not having to worry about paperworks, defenses, failures, being left alone without goodbyes or explanations, heartbreak, falling in love, regrets, lack of sleep, lack of time for myself...
Hay, hell week next week; I wish I was still a kid.
8:06 AM
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I don't care what the world
throws at me now.
It's gonna be alright.
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