Sunday, March 26, 2006

Nonchalance

I got my very first 2.0. Great.

But honestly, I really didn't feel disappointed. I slacked too much after the midterms, especially in Primary Health Care 2. I never liked COPAR after all; part of my dreams of being able to enter into community nursing suddenly vanished into thin air because of my sudden and grave dislike for the whole topic.

I simply didn't find the logic in fitting one whole catch of fish into one can; in simplified terms, I don't find the strategy of learning COPAR---the whole sh*t---in three to four weeks, 2 hours per subject, worth my money and time.

Blah. And they talk of quality education.

Reading the book itself was a mess and expecting to learn from the discussion, expecting to supplement the difficulty of understanding the book, went in vain.

And so after the test, which so happened to be the first I took for the week, I didn't care much for the succeeding tests. The dream of getting back on track crashed all of a sudden. I wasn't alone, however, in the mental drainage; a lot found the results crap, too.

So this is how failure tastes like in college, eh? After dreaming since childhood to ace everything and never get a 2.0...

It was a nice ride, though. For the first time in my life, too, I never felt bad in the midst of failure. Its fangs didn't make me bleed too much, thank heavens. The action will start this summer and the years to come; I just await the hardcore science courses, the courses I dreamt of learning before when I was nudge shy of a medical dream instead of law and order, to strut my stuff.

I am just learning how falling translates to oblivion.

I sound so much like a masochistic freak.

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Thanks to CSI, I learned a new life lesson for keeps:

"Ambition is the last resort of failure."
-Oscar Wilde

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I am dying to exchange my dollars to pesos as I am too broke to survive the two weeks before classes but my conscience dictates me to keep it longer and wait for it to grow before using it.

Mind over heart. Mind over heart. I am going nuts with the lack of a peach blush.

2:21 PM

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I don't care what the world
throws at me now.
It's gonna be alright.
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